Wednesday, October 1, 2014

I Don't Want You To Be Alone

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These are shadows of Aaron's and My legs
with a heart in the middle.
We were crossing the street and I saw this spot of paint in the shape of a heart...
I couldn't pass by without a photo.

I cannot count how many conversations Aaron and I have had about circumstances later in life.
When he talks about getting married, he shows concern about me being alone, so then he has either talked about his family living with me or me living with his family.
Each time subjects like this are brought up, I cannot fathom the idea that I will still be single by that time, but I guess it is a possibility... but not one that I like to even consider because it depresses me.
But obviously, Aaron Jr worries about it enough that when he even thinks about the life's events in his future, he worries about me being alone.

The latest conversation like this happened a couple of days ago...

The subject of a mission came up. Not sure what was mentioned, but his response was that he did not want to go on a mission. When I asked him why he didn't want to go, his voice quivered as he answered that he did not want me to be alone.
I explained to him that Heavenly Father wants him to go on a mission and so do I, but that I will miss him.
He does usually talk about where he wants to serve his mission. He wants to serve either in England where I served my mission, or in Brazil where Daddy served his mission. But every once in a while, he will talk about not wanting to go because he doesn't want to leave me alone.

Aaron brought this heart shaped wood chip home last week.
He found it on the playground at school and wanted me to have it.

I feel very blessed to have such a sweet and thoughtful boy.
Hopefully his nightly prayers will be answered soon and a wonderful man will come into our lives. He wants a Dad and brothers and sisters so badly... that will definitely help him feel better about me not being alone once he leaves home... and it will help me feel better about it as well. :)

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