Thursday, April 15, 2010

Let Us Improve Our Lives... Shall We?

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Six and a half of the most uplifting minutes you will spend ... watch this video and let these words help to improve your life ... I sure hope they help to improve mine.

(if the video doesn't play on here for you, HERE is the link to it)






My New Motto :

"embrace this day with an enthusiastic welcome...no matter how it looks"

~ elder f. enzio busche


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Monday, April 12, 2010

What Has Helped Me Through The Grief & Sorrow

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I will begin this posting with part of a conversation I had with Aaron Jr. tonight.
He was wearing a headlamp and he asked, 'who gave this to me?'
I told him, 'it was Daddy's.'
He asked, 'where is Daddy?'
I turned the question around to him and asked HIM, 'where is he?'
He said, 'in kevin'. (Someday he will remember that it is called heaven, but he cracks me up.)
Then, as he looked down, he said in a very sad voice, 'we don't have a dad anymore.'
I told him, 'Aaron, you still have a dad, he's just not here right now. But he misses you and he loves you and he can still see you and watch over you.'
Then he said, 'yeah.'
After that exchange, he went on to talk my ear off. I loved it.
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Anyhow, I have been wanting to write this posting for a very long time.
It has been 2 years and 4 1/2 months since Aaron passed away and in that time, I have been contacted so many times by people asking me questions about this loss of my spouse. When some people find my blog, they ask for my advice. Whether they know someone who has lost a spouse and want to know how to help the surviving spouse? OR they have lost their spouse and they wonder if what they are feeling is normal? OR they are married to someone who is fighting a health battle and they know they will be losing their spouse very soon... so they wonder what to expect and ask for advice on how to prepare and how to cope.

I have always felt like the trials I go through are partly to be able to help others through similar trials. I know that I was helped when I was able to correspond with other widows. So, I have responded to each of these people who have asked for advice... and every time I do, I always plan to put the advice that I give them on my blog... then anyone who needs to know what I have learned can just find it on here. Well, last night I received another email from someone in Australia. I don't know this person, but this person will be losing their spouse soon and he wrote to ask me about advice on coping.

So, after writing back to him, I finally decided to go back through some of the emails I have sent as replies to people and compile some things I learned as I have gone through the heart break of losing my husband. Things I learned as I grieved and coped and survived. I am no professional about grieving or coping, but because I have been through it, I feel like I know what helped me. That is all I can share... what has helped me.

I have lost a lot of people close to me. Friends, Grandparents, a Brother, and a Husband. I have not lost a parent yet and I have not lost a child (although I have had a few dreams since Aaron died that I lost Aaron Jr as well... that was frightening). Anyhow, the advice I will be giving here in this posting has to do with my experience with losing my husband, Aaron. But I think most of this could also relate to other relationships as well.


FIRST of all, the Lord has been the most important aspect of my grieving process, but I want to share that at the end of this posting.


The rest of these are in no particular order... I hope I make any sense.


HAVE PEOPLE AROUND...
PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU


Those first days and months after Aaron passed away, it helped me to have people around me all the time... or at least AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. If I was alone, it gave me too much time to think and it made it so I was retreating and pulling away from the world. So, the more loved ones around me, the better. It didn't change that I was constantly thinking about who I had just lost, but having people around was a bit of a distraction AND it helped because they were there to talk to and get my feelings and emotions out.


LIVE FOR YOUR CHILDREN;
LET THEM CHEER YOU


Some people I have talked to have lost their spouse without having had the opportunity to have any children together. My heart breaks for these people. Besides having the Savior in my life, the fact that I had Aaron Jr. in my life after Aaron passed away was the other most important part of my grieving process. He was the one I found my joy in.
He was still able to make me laugh every single day and he still does. Having Aaron Jr. here made it so I still felt like I had an immediate purpose. He still needed me. I still needed to get out of bed in the morning to take care of him. I was blessed to have people around to help take care of him, but of course there are those times when he just wanted his mom... and I had to be there for him. If I didn't have him to take care of, it would have been too easy to just stay curled up in my bed and just wither away. I am blessed to have him in my life. He is a treasure and a priceless gift to me. He has been a hero to me through this grieving process.



TALK ABOUT THE ONE YOU LOST

It helped to be able to talk about Aaron. There were so many times when I was having a few moments of not crying and I think most people thought that if they just didn't talk about him, they would not remind me and make me sad. But because he was on my mind ALL the time anyway, the fact that people were avoiding the subject just made me feel worse. I WANTED to talk about him, I wanted to relive the memories I had and I wanted to hear as many memories from other people as I could. So, talk about who you have lost. Make sure you tell people that you want to talk about the person you have lost. Sometimes, those times when we were talking about him were the best times in those first few months. I remember a time when we were visiting my brother and his family in Oregon a few months after Aaron died and during dinner, one of Aaron's favorite singers got brought up. It began a discussion about that singer and about Aaron. I didn't even realize it, but later my brother said something to me about how I lit up when Aaron was brought up. He didn't realize that I would WANT to talk about him, but after that experience, he realized that it was not a negative thing to bring him up to me... that I actually really liked it.
So don't be afraid to bring up the person who has passed away... those who feel the most loss will most likely WANT to talk about the person. When it is fresh and even if some time has passed. The last thing I wanted to feel was that people were forgetting Aaron... and if people avoided the subject, that is what I felt like... like people were forgetting him.


TALK IT OUT / WRITE IT OUT

It helped a lot to have people to talk to. People around who were okay with me telling them how I was feeling and sharing my thoughts with. There were times, though, when I began feeling like I was burdening others with my feelings. I am sure they didn't feel like I was a burden, but I felt like a burden. So... I began to write.
The first few weeks after Aaron passed away, I could not imagine being able to post anything to my blog again. So far, the things shared in my blog were the happenings of our FAMILY. But now, 1/3 of our family was gone and it didn't seem like we would have happy things to report anymore. BUT, a few weeks later,
when I needed to get some feelings out, besides being able to TALK IT OUT with people... also I would write. The things that were too personal to share, I would write in my personal journal... but the things I was comfortable sharing, I shared on my blog. It allowed me to share memories WITH photos. So, WRITE. Write your feelings. Write about the memories of your family that involve the person you have lost. Add photos and funny memories and also the sentimental or sad memories.
I shared
my thoughts, my feelings, my grief, my hurt, my pain, my triumphs, my joys. I shared the happenings as well... but with those happenings, I shared how I felt about Aaron not being there. After I started doing that, I felt better having that outlet.

As time went on, I began sharing as many photos and memories on there about my husband as I could. I wanted to share his life with the world. I wanted to have a place where I could put those memories down so that I can print those for my son someday. So putting memories of ours on the blog was a healing thing. It made it so I was reliving all of my greatest memories with Aaron... and that was a wonderful thing.


ITS OK TO SAY 'NO'

In those first few months, people would try to get me out of the house. It was kind of them. They were being thoughtful. They would invite me to lunch or to dinner or to a movie... but leaving the house was the last thing I wanted to do. It was so difficult for me to be around people that I didn't know. It was difficult to be around people that didn't know Aaron... people who had no idea that I was going through the worst time of my life. So, there were a lot of people that I said NO to. Luckily, they understood and knew it was nothing against them... but don't be afraid to say no, if you don't feel like you are ready for something. It is not an easy thing for me to do... in my normal life, I don't usually have an easy time saying NO, but when I was going through those first months of grieving, it seemed easier to me... because I knew that it was not something I was ready for.


CREATE NEW MEMORIES...
WHILE REMEMBERING OLD ONES


That whole first year, I did everything I could to create new memories for Aaron Jr. and me... while still remembering and writing about the old ones with Aaron. That whole first year on my blog was mostly dedicated to remembering the things Aaron and I did together and trying to create new memories to add to those with Aaron Jr.

Something else that helped me in that first year was trying to get away often. It helped to get away from my life at home. The life that had been completely shattered and was no longer anything like what I knew. I would find friends and family to go and stay with. It was a way to be away from the place where 'normal' had taken on a different meaning. I didn't want to face 'a new normal'... I couldn't... not yet. I wanted to just get away from the ABNORMAL that my life had become. So, we went on trips together where I could create new memories and new experiences with Aaron Jr. Anyhow, I was grateful to have places to go and people to see.


FIND YOUR NEW NORMAL

Now, this is one that I am still trying to figure out. There have been times when I have felt like we have found our new normal, but to be honest... I don't know that I will feel like life is normal again until we feel like a complete family again. I know I may get some comments about this from people telling me that I need to become comfortable in my life the way it is. BUT, the thing about this is... I want to get married again. I want to have more kids. I want Aaron Jr. and me to have that joy in this life that comes from having a growing family... a family with a mom and a dad, a husband and a wife.
Of course, Aaron Jr. and I can get used to our circumstances and even find a little contentment as we move forward in our lives... but I will not feel like life is normal for me again until we have that person in our lives to share our lives with. Someone to be my partner and a father to Aaron Jr.
So... I am not the best person to give advice on this subject... because truthfully, I don't want to get too comfortable in my current situation. I want Aaron Jr. to feel stability in whatever circumstance he is in... but I want him to to have a family... siblings, a Dad to bond with and learn from. And I want to have a family like that as well.
Moving on... :)


FIND JOY IN LIFE

Now, finding joy in life IS something I know about. In the beginning, it was difficult to feel joy because you just feel so much pain and sadness and heart ache... BUT as time has gone on, allowing myself to feel the joy even in the midst of the pain was very important. In the beginning, I felt like showing any joy at all meant that I was not properly missing Aaron. I felt like if I smiled or laughed, somehow I was not honoring his memory and I was not showing how much I was missing him.
But I came to remember that the purpose of this life is to have joy... I began feeling more and more joy... even through the pain.
As far as finding the joy in life... each person finds joy in different things. But there are some sure ways of finding joy in life. Serving others... that is a great way to forget about your own troubles and find joy in life. Being a mom to Aaron Jr... helping HIM to feel joy always makes me feel joy. Reading the scriptures, attending church, going out with friends, hanging out with family, taking time to develop your hobbies... we all know what we find joy in.


TIME HEALS

Okay, so this one was one that I never ever wanted to hear. It annoyed me when people told me that time would heal my wounds... that time would heal my heart. Not only did it sound super cliche, but hearing that TIME would help did not help at the time. It didn't help to hear it, but after time has passed... I do know that TIME DOES HEAL. But it is hard to believe until some time HAS passed.
I do have to say though... try not to get too annoyed with people when they offer advice. Most people have not experienced the type of loss you may be experiencing, so they are just wanting to give comfort the way they know how to... because they care and because they love you. So, accept their love even if you are not sure how you feel about their advice. They only have the best intentions at heart.


ACCEPT HELP

This is another one for me that is easier said than done. In the beginning, I accepted a lot of help... but as time went by, I had a more difficult time accepting help from people. Most of it had to do with my way of thinking. After Aaron died, I felt like I had to prove that I could do everything on my own. I felt like if I was put in this position... obviously it was expected that I handle things on my own and take care of things on my own. I know I don't have to prove anything... but I still struggle with this, so all I can do is offer this advice to myself while offering it to you. Accept help. Allow people to serve you. They will be helping to bless your life and, in turn, you will be allowing them to serve you and receive the blessings that come from serving.
I hope to conquer this one... hopefully sooner than later.


LIVE WITHOUT REGRET

This one is mostly advice for BEFORE you lose someone close to you. A lot of people have asked me if I would have preferred Aaron's death to be sudden and completely unexpected like it did happen, or if I would have preferred to have my husband pass away from an illness so that I had some sort of warning that it was coming. I did not experience slowly watching Aaron die from an illness, so I only base this answer on my opinion... but I think I would have preferred to have some warning that he was going to die. I know that there is suffering that comes with it, having to watch your spouse suffer through an illness. I just know I wouldn't have had so many regrets to live with if I had been able to see it coming. I believe that my regrets have been half of my battle. Well, maybe not half... but they are a huge deal to me. If I had any warning that I was going to lose Aaron, I could have had that time to just BE with him. I could have told him how much I love him and made sure he KNEW it. Instead, all I could think of were the regrets of not telling him enough times how much I love him. Not being able to spend those last moments WITH him. I am sure other people might have a different opinion on this, but based on the regrets I had... I would have liked to have some warning.


FEEL THE PAIN...
FEEL IT HERE and NOW


One of the amazing women who has written to me while she was going through the illness of her husband and then after he passed away... she would write to me and ask me questions... well, one of her questions was: 'Is it supposed to be this painful?'


This is part of my response to that question:
Yes, it is supposed to be that painful. I know it is lame that I say that and tell you that it is normal to feel that horrible... but it is. At least that is how it was for me. From the beginning, I decided that no one was going to tell me or advise me on how I should or should not be feeling at any given time. Everyone experiences it in their own way. If I wanted to feel horrible one day, I was going to do it. If I wanted to mope around and show the world that I was in EXTREME pain, I was going to do it. Aaron Jr. was the one I felt like I needed to hide some of it from.
Don't avoid things that are going to make you feel sad. Some days, I just really needed to cry and feel awful. In fact, I have NEVER avoided anything to keep from getting sad. Photos were SO painful for me. Because Aaron looked so alive in the photos, it was physically painful to look at them because it felt as though he should be here in the flesh looking as alive as he did in those photos... laughing like he was in the photo... or whatever he was doing. But I never avoided them because I wanted to feel the pain. I wanted to feel the pain as deeply and as painfully as I possibly could so that I was at least feeling SOMETHING. If I wasn't feeling the pain, I sometimes just felt numb. I really felt as though letting myself feel the pain as deeply as it was going to go helped me. I wasn't going to push the pain away... or avoid it... because I felt like if I pushed it away or held it in, it would just hit me later anyway. So why not feel it here and now?

I LOVE this poem written by President Spencer W. Kimball :

"Pain stayed so long.
I said to him today, 'I will not have you with me anymore.'
I stamped my foot and said, 'Be on your way,' and paused there, startled at the look he wore.

'I who have been your friend,' he said to me. 'I who have been your teacher - all you know of understanding, love, of sympathy, and patience, I have taught you. Shall I go?'
He spoke the truth, this strange unwelcome guest; I watched him leave, and knew that he was wise. He left a heart grown tender, he left a far, clear vision in my eyes. I dried my tears, and lifted up a song - even for one who'd tortured me so long." -Spencer W. Kimball


So, my advice is to FEEL IT NOW. Don't avoid it. Embrace it... and while you embrace it, ask for strength from the Lord so that it doesn't overcome you and swallow you up. It is okay to feel the pain as long as we don't let it take over. So we need to ask for the Lord to help us bear the burden and give us strength to work through and overcome the pain. We know that He has already felt it all for us and He has overcome it for us, so it is possible. We will overcome it as well. What a blessing.

We are not given trials that are larger than we are. We will be given the strength to overcome IF we want it and accept it. That brings me into the next thing I wanted to share...


CAST YOUR BURDEN ON THE LORD

'Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee...' -Psalms 55:22

So, what helped me the most was staying close to the Savior. He knows what we are experiencing, so He is the one who will be able to comfort us and bring us the peace that we need. I have a testimony that the trials we go through in this life can shape and mold us into what the Lord needs us to be. The trials we endure in this life are to help us learn and grow. We are walking through the refiners fire. We are being refined to become more like our Savior. The better we endure, the more Christlike attributes we will acquire.

"The injured should do what they can to work through their trials, and the Savior will “succor his people according to their infirmities.” He will help us carry our burdens. Some injuries are so hurtful and deep that they cannot be healed without help from a higher power and hope for perfect justice and restitution in the next life. Since the Savior has suffered anything and everything that we could ever feel or experience, He can help the weak to become stronger. He has personally experienced all of it. He understands our pain and will walk with us even in our darkest hours."
~President James E. Faust



PRAY ALWAYS

'I have been driven many times to my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go.'
- Abraham Lincoln


I have felt this way many, many, many times. I have cried to the Lord for help. There have been times when I felt like I would go crazy. I felt like my life was spinning completely out of control, so I would pray. I would get on my knees and as I sobbed, I would pray out loud and ask my Father in Heaven to comfort me. I plead with him to let me feel the peace that we have all been promised. He knows our needs... He sometimes just waits for us to ask for our needs to be met. This is for all of us. Not just when we are grieving... prayer is a blessing to all of us, anytime, anywhere. Our Father in Heaven wants to hear from us. He loves us and wants to bless us. I am so grateful for the power of prayer. I use it daily. Some days I pray to show gratitude... some days I pray to be comforted. It calms my troubled soul.

'Sometimes God calms the raging storm... but sometimes He lets the storm rage and He calms His child.'
- Author Unknown



TRUST IN THE LORD ~
ALLOW YOURSELF TO FEEL COMFORT and PEACE


I have not always been good at this. It is always easier said than done. But the Lord WANTS to help us. He wants to give us the peace and comfort that we desire to feel. He is waiting for us to allow His comfort and peace to come into our lives. So... this advice is for me as much as it is for anyone.... allow the Lord to comfort us and allow His peace to come into our lives.

These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.
~ John 16:33


"Commune with the Lord, He is your best friend! He knows your pain because He has felt it for you already. He is ready to carry that burden. Trust Him enough to place it at His feet and allow Him to carry it for you. Then you can have your anguish replaced with His peace, in the very depths of your soul."
-Elder Dallin H. Oaks




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Now after all that I have written here in this posting... this extremely long posting... I will say this: I am grateful for the people in my life who have helped me as I have endured this trial... the loss of my husband. Of course I will miss Aaron throughout my life, but I know that he is where he needs to be. I cannot imagine a more difficult trial than what I have been through already in my life, but I have a lot of life yet to live and what I have learned through this experience will help me through the trials that come into my life.

Like the poem talked about, I do hope the pain has taught me to be more loving, more understanding, more patient. I hope this experience will help me to be a better mother, daughter, sister, friend... and when the time comes... a better wife.

I know I will experience more heart breaks and more heart aches in my life... but I truly hope for happiness in my future. Joy and love with someone else... whoever that may be. I have SO much love to give and I look forward to a time when I have someone to give that love to. I hope to love more deeply and live without regret.
.. as I move forward.

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Sunday, April 11, 2010

Fear Not

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"My beloved brothers and sisters, fear not. Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith."

~ President Thomas S. Monson, April 2009

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Friday, April 9, 2010

March Madness

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I had to start with this one. On Nick's phone, he can take a photo of someone, then put a fake mustache in the photo. When Aaron saw this photo of himself, he reached up to his face and felt for the mustache. He was confused... it was so cute. He is still using any object he can find to create a mustache on his own face, so now he really knows what a mustache might look like. :)


My friend, Christie and I met in Salt Lake to take our sons to lunch. This is Haak and Aaron. Haak was Aaron's great friend in Lehi before we moved. He asks to play with Haak SO much. They are great friends.


Caroline competed in the district spelling bee in March. She made it to the second round this time... and over analyzed her word and misspelled it. We were sad, but oh so proud of her. She did SUCH a great job. Congrats Caroline!


Lisa and Angus.
Aaron and Evelyn.
Lily and Aaron.



Ok, this is a hand made cabbage patch doll that my mom made for me when I was a little girl. My mom made one for each of us girls for Christmas that year. Aaron found it in my stuff recently and has been pretty attached to it. He calls her his baby sister. It is really cute. I have a little wood crib that I got for Christmas when I was little as well... and he wanted that crib next to his bed and he puts her to bed in the crib. He doesn't play with her all day... but he likes to pretend she is his sister. Its sweet. He wants a brother or sister so badly.


John and Tawnie went to Australia in March. They asked Aaron and me to come over on the first night they were gone to stay with their kids: John, Emily, Thomas, Jack, and Samuel. We had fun being there with them. They are great kids and Aaron had a blast playing with them.


HAIRCUT time!!! I figured it was time.


* Aaron laying on a bucket in the bathtub.
* Aaron with a dirty face.
* Aaron and Zach during the BYU game in one of the March Madness games.
* Aaron playing in Malia's play kitchen. He looks ridiculously cute in that apron.



Evan Aaron's blessing day. Isaac asked to hold his baby brother and it was so funny watching him use him as a pillow at one point, then wrap his leg around him. We even got a smile out of Evan. It was sweet. It was a good day.


After the blessing, we were at Steve and Christa's house. Aaron LOVES to wrestle, but he rarely meets another kid who can last as long as he can when wrestling... OR another kid who is as tough as he is and doesn't get hurt easily from the wrestling. This is one of Christa's nephews. I can't remember his name. But these two had a blast wrestling with each other. As you can see, Isaac tried his hardest to get in there as much as he could. But we were pretty nervous because he is smaller than the other two. :)


and more...


Aaron.


Aaron has been pretty obsessed with Play Dough lately. Seriously. This is after letting him go to town playing with his play dough without worrying about the floor. :) This is RIGHT before I finally cleaned up and vacuumed the floor.


We were happy to attend the play 'Aladdin'. Three of my nieces were in this play.


Caroline.


Hannah. (i think)


Elise. (i think)


Ben and Aaron.


We went up to Park City with Ben one day and we rode on the Alpine Coaster. It was a blast. Aaron begged to ride again, but it is just too much money to be able to go on it multiple times in one day. But we had so much fun. Thanks Ben.




Aaron and Leslie.


I made this cake for Aaron's birthday. I put all 33 candles on it. I turned 33 this year as well... and I didn't blow 33 candles out for myself, so I helped blow these out for both of our birthdays. :) Wow... am I really old enough to have THAT made candles on a cake? Crazy!


After we did the cake, Aaron and I met those from the Harkness family who were in town at the cemetery. We drank some of one of Aaron's favorite drinks 'Guarana' and then shared some memories about him. In the bottom left corner photo, you can see a little somethin' somethin' that Aaron Jr. made. He took sheets of stickers out of my collection and taped them together and called it a Transformer. He made it for his Daddy's birthday. Don't look too closely... you have to be Aaron Jr. to be able to recognize it as a Transformer, I'm afraid. :)


Aaron holding Daddy's cupcake.
Happy Birthday Aaron !!! We love you !!!



We got to go over to Steve and Christa's for Isaac's 3rd birthday party. Aaron was invited and they had a blast. Click on the photo to see the cake better. Christa made it and it turned out so cute. Isaac LOVES the movie 'Cars'.


We had the privilege of attending the play at the Junior High. Two of my nephews were in it and it was SO good.
This is my nephew David. He played Jacob in the play.



This is also David. He played the Pharaoh as well. He did so good. It was so much fun to watch.




This is Matthew. He played Levi. He did a great job. It was fun to see him act out all of the different types of music and dancing parts that the brothers play.




This is Aaron. He came to get me to show me that he put this puzzle together all by himself. He got it for his birthday in December from Steve and Christa and I have helped him put it together so far... but this time, he did it all alone, then came to get me. I was SO proud of him. He was SO proud of himself. What a cutie. I love this boy.

March was a good month. It was jam packed full of stuff going on... hence the title 'March Madness'. :)

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Thursday, April 8, 2010

Hogle Zoo

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My sweet little turtle.




Go BYU cougars ! :)






Aaron Jr with a giraffe, a big gorilla. This giraffe is so cute... and what on earth is this monkey guy doing? He was lounging like this. So funny.


Can someone help get this monkey off of Aaron's back? :)
I know... clever.








Benny and Aaron Jr.


Aaron Jr. and Leslie.

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Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Matters of the Heart

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So, this is a difficult posting for me to do. But I want to do it anyway. Aaron Jr and I went to Washington state for Easter weekend. We went up to visit Ben. He is someone that I have gone out with and he has become a really good friend. Anyhow, Aaron Jr and I went up to visit him and to spend some time up where he is from. We spent Saturday decorating eggs, and playing around on their farm. We had a blast. It was so much fun.

I have never discussed dating on my blog before. I have not felt very comfortable with discussing this subject on here and it has been difficult for me to imagine sharing that part of my life on my blog. So far, I have not shared it on here. But after this past weekend, I decided that I wanted to post photos from our weekend and share that I have taken the big step into the world of dating again.

I admit, I struggled with my feelings about dating. It has been difficult for me to let my heart be vulnerable in that way. But opening my heart is a necessary thing to do if I am going to allow myself to be open to this type of happiness in my future... and I do want that happiness.

The reason I am choosing to share this now... is because Ben is a great guy and the type of guy that I want to be with... someday... whoever and wherever that guy may be.
So, here goes...



Ben helped Aaron collect eggs from the hens. Aaron had a blast being on their farm and seeing the animals.


For the Easter egg hunt, Ben and his mom taped money to two of the chickens' feet so the kids could chase them and retrieve the money.


Ben also did this with two of the baby potbelly pigs. It was so funny.


Aaron hunting eggs.


Aaron showing off some funny ears and his rewards from the hunt.


Me and chocolate mouth Aaron.


The BIG potbelly pig... and Ben.


Ben, BIG potbelly pig, and Aaron.


Aaron holding baby potbelly pig.


I had to include this photo. Aaron Jr is always so quick to go from crying... to smiling when I ask him to... even for a photo. I can learn a lot from this little boy of mine. It is not quite so easy for me to go from crying to smiling... but I will work on that.

Thanks to Ben and his family for the fun weekend. We had a blast.

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