Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Suddenly, My Problems Seemed So Very Small...

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I have not posted to my blog since Memorial Day. I have just been having such a difficult couple of weeks. The past few days especially have been awful for me. I am not going to go into details, but I am just so lonely, so heartbroken, and sorrowful. I have been crying a lot because of my sadness and I have just been feeling down in the dumps. Missing Aaron so much... every day...

Well, today, my sister sent me a link to a video on youtube that made me cry tears of sorrow for someone else. As I sit here crying, I figured I should share this video with as many others as I can... not because I think there is much each of us can do for these kids on our own, but to help other people... like it helped me... realize how blessed each of us really are. I needed this today... I needed to focus on someone other than myself to help me see that the loneliness I feel each day (though it is painful for me) is nothing compared to the loneliness these kids feel and the abandonment they experience. The least we can do is be grateful for what we have and pray for people who are so very less fortunate than we are. My heart has broken today for these kids and kids like them all over the world. These precious children of our Father in Heaven.

Just a few seconds into the video,
Suddenly, My Problems Seemed So Very Small...

please watch this video... and once again, pause my music to the right while you watch...




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19 comments:

Miss Heather said...

Wow. Thank you for sharing. It's the most humbling thing I've ever seen.

Aaron Jr. is so lucky to have you.

Natalie said...

Leslie-I'm not sure what to say after watching that...humbled. I continue to think of you and Aaron Jr everyday. I hope better days are to come. Thank you for sharing.

Kate, Alek, Hank, and Cash (RIP RED) said...

Leslie,
I myself have been feeling that same very empty feeling. I miss companionship so much and Randy and my talks and time together. I have bee in an awful funk.
I have his memorial walk this weekend and am nervous as all hell. I hope we can talk more soon
Thanks hun for sharing the video you put things into perspective that is for sure....
Kate and Alek

k+m said...

wow... that completely broke my heart. my sister studied abroad in uganda for a few months and said it was the most eye-opening, humbling and gut-wrenching experience to see what they really go through over there. how sad.

i hope you're doing ok les. i love ya girl. you're such a beautiful person and aaron jr is lucky to have you.

k+m said...

wow... that completely broke my heart. my sister studied abroad in uganda for a few months and said it was the most eye-opening, humbling and gut-wrenching experience to see what they really go through over there. how sad.

i hope you're doing ok les. i love ya girl. you're such a beautiful person and aaron jr is lucky to have you.

Valeri said...

That was extremely difficult to watch - wow! But what a reminder it gives me to be grateful for the things in my life - especially the things we take for granted every day like food, shelter, health care, etc.

I hope you're doing better today.

Allred Mom said...

Leslie,
I think we all need to be reminded just how blessed we are, even when things aren't going the way we had planned. Thank you for sharing the video. It was truly humbling and tore at my heart strings. Reading your words before the video also tore at my heart. Even though we have never met, I think of you often and ponder how hard it would be to be a young wife and mother and lose my spouse-my eternal best friend. I can't even imagine, even with our faith and the eternal perspective that we have, I know it would be so very hard. Know that I pray for tender mercies of joy and happiness for you, that will give you the strength to continue moving forward.

Kristi said...

Wow.
I'll see ya tomorrow.

K and K and kids said...

whoa...that is heart breaking. We are all so blessed to live in this (crazy) country.

hope you are doing ok. Love ya, Les.

Amanda Sue said...

I just cried as I watched this. Seeing this makes it so much easier to count the blessing in my life. I'm so sorry its been a rough bit for you, you are an amazing women with great strength. That little guy is blessed with a wonderful mother.
Love ya girlie.

Anonymous said...

Leslie,
It has been awhile since my last comments. Be asured I am still around. Things are getting a bit more stressful as time goes by as I watch my sweet husband stuggle with cancer. Things are not good. I am greatful for you in my obscure life. You keep reminding me what is important! Thanks for sharing your feelings and the video it is just what I needed.....to be reminded to count my blessings! I still pray for you and Aaron Jr. every night!
Love, Stephanie

cynphil6 said...

Leslie,

That was an amazing video. I think it is always good to have perspecive, and realize we are one small part in this world. That being said, I don't think you should be upset with yourself for having a difficult time. You have suffered a tremedous loss, and I'm sure still just trying to figure stuff out! You are only human, and I think sometimes we forget to forgive ourselves when we do not respond as we feel is appropriate. Don't judge yourself too harshly.
Sending prayers,
Cynthia

AlanaBD said...

Hi Honey!

I know you are sad these days. It was fun chatting the other night and I hope you felt a little better, even if it was for a few minutes. I think of you everyday. I am still finding out about me coming out sometime soon, k?

Give Aaron Jr. a kiss, he's so cute! I couldn't watch the video. I can only guess of what it would be and I just can't stomach it--especially after having a child.

Love you,
Alana

amanda said...

i love it

dani said...

what deplorable conditions!!! i wondered while i was watching if the three children had actually been "given up on" or if in actuality their parents were even still living... as most are orphans.

leslie, pain and suffering are relative. to have and then have not brings about much more sadness than to never have had at all.

in my opinion, you cannot even begin to compare your situation with this one. it's ok to grieve, my friend...

love and prayers,
dani xx... x

Brandi said...

Always keeping me grounded Leslie. Thanks for sharing so much of your life with all of us who have so much and need to be reminded.

April said...

So humbling... hard to watch. Thinking of you, Les. Love you.

Joann said...

Leslie, that was so moving. It really does make you grateful for what you've got. Thanks so much for sharing!

Do you have this in pink? said...

Leslie,

Thank you for sharing this, it quickly put my live back into perspective.

I also agree with beautiful Dani. Feel how you need to feel to grieve for your love!

Em