Well, I Oughta Be...

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Well, I Oughta Be Ashamed Of Myself...

I cannot believe how long it has been since I have written, but I can explain!!!

So, way back when, when I was still consistently posting to my blog, I was getting a posting ready from a vacation we went on and my computer crashed. My brother helped recovery what he could, but some of the photos I had been editing down to post got lost... and those hours I had spent on editing down those hundreds of photos seemed daunting to start all over again. So... I didn't...

But I felt like I couldn't go on with posting until I had those done because of course it has to be in order, right? Well, eventually I started posting again and figured I would go back and do that posting later... but then I had entered a bad habit of not posting to my blog, so I would go in spurts. I would post a bunch, then nothing, then I would post a bunch, then nothing... then longer nothing, until it has been 6 months since I have written anything.

So... I feel terrible (mostly because this was my journal and now I have months and months that I have nothing written down), but also because there are people who care about us who are wondering what became of us. So, I want to thank those of you who have asked about my blog recently because you got me to write on here. Thank you!

So here are a few updates that I can remember at this late hour...

I wish I could say that a lot has changed since the last time I wrote. I wish I could say that the reason for my long absence was because I met THE guy and we were engaged to be married. :) But... NOPE! I am still doing the sporadic first dates that very rarely turn into a second date. I just never seem to go out with someone who I feel that amazing connection with, someone who I look forward to seeing again. It just rarely happens... and it is getting really old.

Let's see... one thing that I can mention is that I bought a really expensive camera last year in the hopes that I would finally have the courage to start taking photos professionally instead of just a hobby. I have still been mostly photographing as a hobby, but I have taken some photos recently where I actually got paid... YAY! I drafted my sister into the mix and she has been going on photo shoots with me as my second pair of eyes / a second creative director. :) It has made it so much easier for me to get out there and feel more confident. So, we have been building a portfolio that I can eventually post online somewhere to maybe get some customers? See? Doesn't that sound oh so confident? Hahaha. Seriously though, as I learn the ins and outs of this new camera, it gets me more excited that this hobby is finally (slowly) becoming a little bit of an income.

Aaron Jr is eight and a half and he is wonderful. I still marvel at the blessing he is in my life.

Remember all of the vacations we used to go on because we felt footloose and fancy free? Well, those have come to a screeching halt. :( Aaron Jr and I have not been any further than an hour away in almost two years. I am starting to feel claustrophobic and I am hoping to take him somewhere... soon. We will see if I can swing something. I really need a place to go relax where there are no demands on my time or energy, except to have fun and hang out with Aaron Jr.

I just started a new commitment to working out and eating less junk. This is a tough one for me. I am a candy-holic and working out is so hard for me unless I can work out socially. :) But I have felt like my metabolism has died off and I feel compelled to try to kick start it again by being active more consistently. Here's hoping.

Life is strange, isn't it? I feel like no time has passed, and yet, I blinked and years have passed by without my hopes and dreams becoming a reality yet. I am still waiting on the Lord and I will keep waiting as long as it takes... but I sure hope He helps my path and my future husband's path cross sooner than later. We are so ready for that next chapter... beyond ready.

Thank you again for caring... you all know who you are...

See y'all soon...

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