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Aaron Jr. holding my leg and saying "I want to hold you" today.
(and probably wishing I would just put down the camera already)
So, I needed to share an experience I had tonight. It is simple, but it taught me a brilliant lesson. We got home from a trip this evening (I will share a post about that when I get the photos ready to put on here), and after travelling, I was pretty tired and wanted to relax.
Aaron Jr. brought me a DVD that I bought several years ago for one dollar that had never been opened, but because there were kids on the front of it, he was all about it tonight. I put it in for him and as soon as it started, there was upbeat music and the kids on the show were dancing, so immediately Aaron Jr. started dancing and wanted me to dance as well.
So, I danced as well until the opening song was over, then we both sat down.
After the show played through one time (it was short), he wanted me to start it again, so I did. Well, the music started again and he was off of the couch in a flash and said to me "Dance!"
So, I told HIM to dance. He started dancing, but then stopped and said he wanted ME to dance as well. I told him I was too tired. At that point, his face dropped, he turned around, and started heading towards the couch to sit down.
I was sick. I realized that a simple NON act from me had broken his tender little heart. So, I immediately forgot about my tired and lazy desires and I jumped right up and started dancing with him.
His face soared. He was so excited and he jumped right in and danced. I grabbed his hands and started dancing WITH him and he was laughing so hard.
It was such a small and simple thing that I could do to make him so happy, which meant that I was so happy as well. If I had just sat there and let him walk back to the couch, I would have regretted it. I am so glad he wanted me to dance with him and I am so glad that I did. It made me smile and I will never forget how I felt. It was a tender mercy.
A simple act today saved me from a major regret tomorrow.
This goes along with how I have felt a lot lately. When I get impatient with Aaron Jr. or tell him to 'wait' or 'hold on' or 'in a minute' when he wants my attention, I usually think in my mind about how I would feel if I lost him and he wasn't here tomorrow. I am not perfect, but I am prompted every day to show an increase of love for him and for others. Like I said, I am so imperfect, but losing Aaron and having the regrets that I have has made me think more about the simple acts that I can do to make Aaron Jr. feel extra love from me. He SO deserves it.
At the airport today, we were flying standby, so they always send us through more security than normal. Aaron Jr. stood there watching as a lady frisked me (patted me down). Last time we flew, a guy actually patted down Aaron Jr. as well. That is pretty funny and not funny at the same time. Anyhow, when the lady told me I was clear to go, I started walking out and Aaron Jr. started following me, but then stopped. I turned around to find him patting himself down. He was doing it just like the lady had done it. He patted down his legs, his arms and then his torso. It was hysterical. I was laughing SO hard. Then a sad thing happened, he walked away from me while I was retrieving our bags and turned a corner and ran smack into a glass wall. The glass was too clean, I guess. His head literally bounced off of the glass. It was so sad and yet it was also funny. He got a bump on his forehead... poor little guy.
I am SO glad I danced tonight with Aaron Jr. and I am even more grateful that he asked me to dance. I love my sweet little boy.
and I love you, Aaron...
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