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“God does notice us, and He watches over us. But it is usually through another person that he meets our needs.”
- Spencer W. Kimball
It is the middle of the night, but I just need to write. I am sitting here with a heavy and painful heart, but also with a heart full of gratitude. I can't stop crying long enough to get to bed, so I thought I would write on my blog. Lately, I have felt like I am suffocating just like I did in those first days after Aaron passed away. I think I am doing better than I was in those first days, but I have been having a very difficult time lately.
Tonight, I need to share some gratitude for all of you...
I need to say that my family and friends have played a key role in helping me get to this point in this 'healing' process and I am grateful to them all. I hope they all know how grateful I am. Their prayers, their advice, their love, their help and comforting words have been SO valuable to us.
I also have to say that those of you who have been reading my blog all this time have also helped me. I do not know how many people read my blog. I DO know that a lot of you who read it do not add a comment... and that is okay. I love knowing that you read it because I just love knowing that people are getting to know the man we are missing and the man we love.
Those of you who read our blog and write comments to us, you have no idea how helpful you have been to me. There are so many strangers who have reached out to me and have offered their comforting words and also their prayers in our behalf. Often times, I will be up late (like tonight) reading through my postings and looking at photos of Aaron and I will see a new comment left by someone that I hadn't seen before. This happened twice tonight. I don't always leave comments on the blogs I visit, so I totally understand when people don't want to leave a message, but I just felt like I needed to thank those who have expressed their love and hope and prayers for us. You will never know how much it has meant to me to feel the love from family, friends, and strangers... who don't feel like strangers because of the love they offer.
I am truly grateful for all of you.
I am humbled by the generosity of your loving spirits and I thank you all.
I love you, Aaron...
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